So you think my life is perfect now. Well it's not as interesting as in the past, but the people I live by now are on the internet, so I can't share like I did. They are smarter and more capable of finding me. Just kidding, but they are.
About the most annoying thing here is the guy that runs his car for 30 minutes to warm the engine, which is not necessary and damages his car, uses gas and pollutes the environment. And the woman on the other side that never had a house and doesn't know how to fix things, but that's OK, cause I'm usually available to help. the guy a few doors over works odd hours and comes home sometimes in the middle of the night, but I'm usually asleep and don't see the lights or hear the car doors slam.
I've found hickory nuts hidden in various places in the laundry room mostly. In some give away fabric, inside my winter boots and recently in a fabric covered box I used as a vase before My cuz gave me a real one. That's a lot of winter storage.
And occasionally I run into the mouse in the bathroom at night. They don't eat my food. I think they steal from the chipmunk who has a HUGE stash in the walls. He is very busy stealing the bird seed.
OK so the house isn't perfect either. It is cute, but a good portion is hand built from an old garage. Wiring is bad and I will be addressing that during slow season. I don't want' my new TV to fry from badly installed non grounded outlets. Even the grounded outlets aren't grounded. Scary.
The living room ceiling is acoustic tile poorly installed and the kitchen floor has indoor outdoor carpeting. Actually the whole house does.
And just to make sure I don't miss the insanity of life on the lake, the whole family comes over now and then and with all the kids here, it takes me a whole day to clean up their mess (and they are careful when they're here)
And the MIL visited this week, just to be sure I didn't miss the old neighborhood and the fun we had. Here are some of the fun things she said this visit.
"I'm so proud of you keeping your house so clean. It even smells nice."
"Oh, your hair is growing. I can cut it for you if you want."
" I brought your decoration. Oh, these aren't yours? they must be mine, you have no idea how happy that makes me. You made my day."
"I didn't know how to tell you. Your puppy had liver disease so we had to put it down."
And after helping me in with my groceries she stops and hands me my keys that she picked up and almost left with and laughs because they are mine not hers.
Ah, life is beautiful.
Wednesday, December 11, 2013
Wednesday, December 4, 2013
I know most of you work hard to get the things you think you need, like a nice house and a big screen TV, but for the past few years I have had very little and yet I have discovered through having very little, what beauty and joy there is in the world.
One of my favorite very zen sayings is "My barn having burned to the ground, I can now see the moon."
This is how I have spent the past few years. Truly enjoying life without all the clutter of materialism.
I've gotten to see very generous hearts who work at the food pantry, and when I get a special food treat, it tastes so much better. Generous people helped me set up my new rental house, or sent welcome gifts. And others simply shared my delight in finally being able to afford my own place and finding a dreamy one at that.
Because I haven't had a car, I get rides with wonderful people. Without that I might not have gotten to spend quality time with my wonderful cousin who succumbed to cancer. It was a blessing, not having a car.
I am able to enjoy simple pleasures, like walking to town and saying hello to people in the parks and sidewalks.
I don't make much money, but I can work by the window with the occasional passing, deer, squirrel, rabbit, and the bird feeder where I can see hundreds of hungry mouths filled every day, including the annoying chipmunk who hides hickory nuts in my laundry and chews my rope mop for bedding.
I sleep on a $10 air mattress on 6 storage buckets, but It's comfy with a Down Feather bed and so much more comfortable than the bunk bed I was sharing with my Grandson. Even then I enjoyed streaming shows on my very cheap android phone with my headset, for entertainment. Even if I did occasionally drop it on my face when I got drowsy. That wakes you up.
So what I can say to you, is if things get dire, don't despair. There is great joy to be had in poverty. If you have a roof over your head, food in your stomach and decent health and the ability to receive the gifts that gentile hearts give (that's the trick) your life can be filled with unbelievable joy.
Monday, October 28, 2013
“Some people like to go out dancing / And other people, (like us) they gotta work / And there’s always some evil mothers / They’ll tell you life is full of dirt / And the women never really faint, and the villains always blink their eyes / And the children are the only ones who blush / ‘Cause life is just to die.” Lou Reed
This week we lost a music icon, at least in my eyes.
Some of you don't know Lou Reed. Some of you have him deep in your soul like I do. He spoke from a darker side of life. But he spoke with a soulful gritty voice, of life and death and love. He spoke of the people we turn our faces from, people we should lend a hand to, not turn a back to. At least that's how I feel.
As we've recently seen with actor Cory Monteith, not all drug users are evil. I can honestly say that without exception, EVERY substance abuser I have known, didn't do it for the selfish pleasure of the feel of the high, they did it to feel more comfortable in their own skin. They take the drug, to erase who they are, because there's something about them that they just can't live with. So every day they try to forget who they are. Those are the people who just can't kick it. Whatever it is, from heroin to alcohol. So those of us who are strong, and can last more than a day with just ourselves. We are blessed, we are lucky and shouldn't look down at someone who hurts just to look at himself in the mirror.
“Oh, it’s such a perfect day / I’m glad I spend it with you / Oh, such a perfect day / You just keep me hanging on … Just a perfect day / You made me forget myself / I thought I was someone else, someone good.” Lou Reed
Some of us make it from the dark into the light. Some of us learn how to live with ourselves. Lou Reed did that, without forgetting where he came from. Without having to bury his past. There are so many of us who are ashamed of that past, because of those looks we can get.
Lou fought for his life. His lack of faith in himself cost him his liver. Someone believed in him and gave him a second chance, but it wasn't meant to be.
Fly Fly Away Lou Reed. Your music will be with us forever. That's your redemption and your legacy. Your music will always be in my soul.
Saturday, October 26, 2013
I did manage to save the important stuff, recipes, because I need to fill my fat face. I lost all my family pictures, the trip to San Francisco with my Grandson and Holidays past. I really need to put those on disk and stop relying on the computer. So many image files. Probably why the poor old girl gave it up after 7+ years. I have NEVER had a laptop last that long.
But enough of the old Girl, I wanted to talk about the new @#*&!. It's really not the laptop's fault. I blame it all on Microsoft whose designers were obviously still on some kind of strong medication or maybe "just kidding" when they designed Windows 8.
Seriously, I have spent more time trying to get this damn thing to function that I should have to waste with a very fast new computer. Last night for instance, all of a sudden, every slightest move of my finger kept flipping me back and forth between Window and the Desktop. For those of you who are not familiar, Windows 8 works on 2 environments, to allow the user time to acclimate I guess. For those of us in the field, it just SUCKS! I finally had to shut my laptop down, because I couldn't stay on any one page long enough to get anything done.
Here's another thing. I did a little research and found that Chrome is the fastest browser for 8 so I downloaded it. I was using in ton desktop, and there were some things not working quite right. There were some dead spots on pages, I couldn't click on. Then I got the idea to launch it in the Windows 8 environment and so, dead spots gone, it works there, right? Well sort of. Some of the things like Silverlight, don't work in the Windows environment.
One of the big issues with Windows 8 ( well maybe is't just another annoying issue) is that there are very few apps. No one wants to put the money into developing apps for a dying dog. And here I sit, typing on a dying dog.
Why don't I upgrade to the new 8.1 you may ask? You know, the version that's supposed to work better? Well after loosing 20 minutes of my life reading the process of backing up all your files on your computer, before starting your upgrade, because it's possible to loose all your files and programs during the upgrade, I decided that today wasn't the day to spend any more time on the computer than necessary.
I mean windows wants you to get familiar with the 8 environment, yet today when I put my image laden SD card in the reader, nothing happened in 8. I have no idea how to get images from the reader on 8. I HAD to go to desktop to get them, even though I have been trying to get used to the 8.
Things I don't get - how the touchpad works. There must be a way to not fip back and forth between 8 and desktop, but I don't know. There must be a way to put your cursor near the frame of you screen without popping up charms, but I don't know. There must be a way to use the computer from 8, but I don't know. I don't even know how to access my files from 8 and when I try to get images in my HUGE files I see only a few at a time and have to scroll through this HUGE mass of tiny images. HOW DO I ADJUST THAT!
Oh Microsoft, I know you had good intentions, but whoever approved this monstrosity ought to be fired. Not the techs that developed it, you know, the supervisor who approved it. This abomination goes to the head of the class me thinks.
If you have one of these monsters, I sympathize. If you're thinking of getting one. Wait a bit till the bugs are worked out if you can. I, unfortunately, couldn't wait.